Rayen

There's a lot to stress over this summer, which prompted me to make some changes to maintain a positive attitude while I manage everything. If you're in a similar boat, here are: Ten Things I'm Doing to Reduce My Stress Baking: Cooking is therapy for me, and baking is my favorite form. Yesterday I baked a new batch of my guys' favoriter bagels, and last night I made apple turnovers for them. Crochet Every Day: I regain a lot of peace and calm from crocheting in my spare time. It's also great physical therapy for my hands. Focus: For the first time in my life I am taking active charge of not only what I think, but how I think. My goal is to be present in this moment, not dwell on the past or worry about the future. Today, right now, is where I am and where I need to be. Generosity: I've always been a generous person, but I'm trying to incorporate one act of kindness every day. It's not anything gradiose, usually just a nice gesture...

My annual visit to the optometrist last week did not go well. Among other problems I am developing posterior capsule opacification (secondary cataracts) again, which means another eye surgery. Specifically laser surgery, which is much easier on me than when they cut into my eyes, but I won't know for sure what the treatment is until I go and see my surgeon. I came away from the appointment rather depressed, but I meditated and napped and when I woke up the next morning my head was in a better place and I've regained most of my calm. This will be the Summer from Hell, apparently, but dwelling on what might happen or how unfair it is (three eye surgeries for someone who is terrified of eye surgery!) won't change anything. Live in the now rather than worry about the future. This is what happens in old age, and it's best not to let it destroy one's peace. The funny thing is that my guy and I presently have to juggle our health conditions. Of course I need surg...

The thrifted Vera Bradley purse I'm presently carrying has, like the last one I patched, developed some fabric wear holes after only a month of daily use. This one has them on both sides of the purse. I think it's the cheap fabric, which seems to be deteriorating due to thinness and age (I wasn't banging the purse into anything.) My fix was a quick one -- sew two small white doilies over the wear spots to keep them from getting worse. I'll likely switch out my purse again soon and wash this one to see if the doily repair holds. I guess the fabric wear is going to be a continual challenge.

While out hunting two small doilies for a purse repair project I caved into the temptation to buy two more mystery bags of jewelry, one with brooches and the other with bracelets. I already know I'll get more than I expect from this mystery bag seller. At another antique place I also invested in a vintage tin, a jewelry jar and a small handmade zippered pouch for my stitch markers. Here are the brooches that came in the first mystery bag. Beautiful! I'm already planning an Art Deco tote around the pearl/gold chain piece. The bracelets were awesome, too. They're all stretchy, which is easier for me to put on and take off. I thought the jewelry jar would have a mix of things, but nope, it was filled with five more bracelets. This is perfect for me because it's the only jewelry I wear everyday. I love them all. :)

Pick Up Limes had a short video about taking a color walk as a mindfulness exercise, so I tried it and had a lot of fun. To follow in my footsteps, check out my album of pics here.

With my nephew moving out, my favorite person coming for an extended visit, and my guy needing minor surgery, as well as a project I need to finish for my day job, my quiet life is suddenly becoming very chaotic. Pressure mounts as I try to manage the additional tasks as well as everyone's expectations of me. This time, however, a lot has changed in my ability to do so, thanks to some changes I've made in how I perceive and address the expectations of others. Actions versus Expectations: As always I do what I can, but I no longer overextend myself, especially while others who create the work for me stand by doing nothing and/or criticize me for not satisfying their requirements. I am not a machine. Nor do I beat myself up if I can't make them happy. That's their problem, not mine. Calming Meditation: I have a new habit in the mornings, in that I'm choosing a spiritual teaching to focus on that day, and also to meditate on as I walk the dogs or do my chor...

I do like stories about mythological foxes, and used one in a project for work, so when I saw the clever cover art for Yangsze Choo's The Fox Wife I had to invest in a new copy. This turned out to be a very good way to spend book money. The historical fantasy story begins in 1908 China, and told from two points of view: Bao, an older detective investigating a strange death, and Snow, a shape shifting fox who wants revenge for her murdered child. At first I wasn't sure I'd like it -- the fox's grief and the detective's rapidly declining health both seemed depressing and dark -- but the story does capture and hold the attention by not focusing on either but absorbing you into their adventures. Eventually Bao and Snow meet, and then everything they have been chasing comes to an unusual climax that is unexpectedly upbeat. Upsides: The writing is beautiful, spare, and wonderfully experienced. This may be the author's third novel but she writes like she...

Last week I woke up right before sunrise, thanks to Shadow, who can't stand to let me sleep in. Since I wasn't all that tired I got up to let the dogs out, and saw an unusual sight: the sky beginning to turn lavender. I can't remember ever seeing a lavender sky at sunrise, so I decided to take some pics. Only the first one really showed the color, and only when I boosted the color saturation to 75%. I've always tried to remember to look at the sky, which for me is a metaphor for the self, at least a couple times every day. In a sense I was as lavender in the moment as the sky was. Lavender is a gentle, quiet, soothing color to me. Lavender and chamomile are my favorite calming tea blend. The color is not as in your face as purple, or as dark as violet, but softer and much more serene. Seeing this lovely sunrise left me feeling calmer and more peaceful, which is a wonderful way to start the day. As I walked back to my home office I wondered how many o...

Last weekend my guy and I were able to go to the Classic Car Show in Daytona Beach, and saw some gorgeous vehicles. A 64 Impala (my first car) brought back lots of frustrated parking memories -- it still looks like a boat! and there were some awesome customized beauties, too. To admire what we saw, check out my photo album here.

This year summer begins on June 21st, which at the time this post publishes will be nine days away. Summer is my favorite season of the year for many reasons, including all the lovely green growing things, the long days, the rain storms that often lull me to sleep, and yes, the heat. I grew up in South Florida where there are hot temperatures basically year-round, and the heat of summer is the only time of year that feels comfortable to me. I don't know exactly when I began looking forward to summer so much every year, but it was probably because of school ending. I did not like school at all, so I was always beyond happy for summer vacation. Three months of being able to go to the library when I wanted, ride my bike when I wanted, and play in the park were better than Christmas for me. Almost better than Halloween, too. :) We used to go to the beach most often in summer, and I miss that terribly. This year I want to go as often as possible with my guy. The beach i...

While at the antique mall where my donated throws were being sold I saw this pretty portait of a frog made out of beads, brooches, necklaces and other bling, and had to take a photo of it. This artist is so clever with how they recycle vintage jewelry and findings into new art. That day this little guy came home with me. He was cheap, made from a very old crazy quilt, very shabby, and has a serene quality that primitives sometimes possess. He'll be hanging out with me in the sewing room. Was it necessary to buy this? Nope. Do I regret the purchase? Nope. I also bought this apothecary jar filled with buttons, threads and other wonders. If you want to sort through it with me, check out more pics here .

A couple of months ago I donated a bunch of the throws and blankets I've made to our local church thrift. I really can't keep everything I make, and I like the thought of the profits from selling my work going to help people in the community (among other things this thrift store provides free food for the needy.) Among the throws I donated that day were the Iris throw and the star blanket I made for a friend's challenge -- second and third from the left. Fast forward to June. My guy and I like to walk antique malls because there is always something fun to look at. I do pay attention to the crochet being sold, as I love the old doilies and threadwork, and I'm always interested to see what old throws and blankets are made of, and what they sell for. We went to one about an hour away from our house, and as I was browsing I spotted a throw that looked awfully familiar in one of the booth cubbies. It was made in the Ocean Tranquility pattern, and had a border of d...

Say hello -- and goodbye -- to my trusty HP Laser 1320 PCL 5 printer. I spent over $800.00 on it back in the early years of my career. It finally blew up this week, which made me very sad. It has been the most dependable, reliable, long-lasting printer I have ever owned. Since it is 19 years old and I've been using it weekly (sometimes daily) since 2007 I think I got my money's worth out of it. Most laser printers only last between three to seven years according to Google. Say hello to my new HP Laserjet printer. I got it on sale for $259.00 (which is $120.00 off) so it was cheaper, sort of. It prints nicely, although it only has one paper tray and it's a bit slower than the old printer. Still, it will serve my needs. Here's the toner cartridge for it, which was $151.49, which is roughly double what cartridges for my old printer cost. That really hurt. Did I want to spend $439.22 this month on a printer and toner? Nope. Outside of medical bills, I...

When I spotted this pile of fourteen cookbooks at the online auction I saw three about grilling that I wanted, and put in a low bid. I figured I wouldn't win the lot -- only I did. Nearly all of them are titles that appeal to me, and I think I can learn a lot from them. Well, not so much from the Keto cookbook, but the rest, sure. :) The cookbooks are in very nice condition, and would probably bring in at least $70.00 resale; I got the lot for $9.99, or about seventy-one cents per book. Hopefully we can find some new recipes to inspire our summer cooking.

Last month I went over budget in almost every category, mainly because I was upset and not paying much attention to my spending. It seemed more important to get back my equilibrium and be happy, and I don't regret parting with a little extra cash to do so. I am an emotional creator, and my emotions tend to get out of hand when things go toxic for me. I am easily frightened and I know that intellectually, but what I tell myself in my head seldom migrates to my heart. I have triggers and I imagine I always will. Everyone does. Mine just happen to take a lot of work to quiet down. Anyway, I'm over the trauma, and I've taken steps to protect myself. It's time to get back on track. I already know that I am not suited to having no-spend months, mainly because it's almost impossible to resist temptation when I try. Then there is non-negotiable necessary spending (medicines, reference materials and other things I need for the day job, etc.) which I'll disc...

The other morning I was preparing to drink my second cup of coffee when I realized I was tired of drinking out of a plastic tumbler. I have about a dozen of them, all Starbucks, all red, all thrifted. Yes, it's safer if I happen to drop it (and I drop lots of stuff these days, thank you arthritis) but the color red always makes me nervous. Red equals emergency, blood, and crisis in my head. I didn't think about any of that when I thrifted them; I just wanted something cheap and convenient. Cheap and convenient is nice, easy, and preferable, but not always when it comes to mood. Part of me is tired of settling for what's easy and sacrificing my mood in the process. I want inspiration. I want to be surrounded by beauty and whimsy and things that make me happy. I really, really want to smile in the mornings. So I ditched the plastic tumbler, took out my favorite Halloween ceramic mug and had my second cup of coffee in that. I don't care that it's five mon...

I thrifted a book of origami that included the papers from our local church thrift for $1.99, and decided to try a few of the designs as something different and fun to do. This bunny was my second attempt (the first I had to abandon when I couldn't figure out the directions.) Then I made a swan. Origami is pretty exacting, and sometimes the way the illustrations show to fold the paper is confusing. But I like the results when I do get it right, so I'll keep practicing. I'd love to be able to fold a thousand paper cranes. :)

One morning a few weeks ago I was starting my morning routine when I noticed dried blood on my ankle. I vaguely remembered scratching an itch in that area before I went to bed. Evidently my skin is getting so thin I can tear it with my fingernails. This is one of a few new body problems I have to deal with. Note to self: get the Benadryl lotion when you have an itch. I would like to write more poetry (the inspiring kind, not the depressing kind) so I invested in this poem-a-day prompt book. It has nice pages with a one-line prompt and space to write a poem under it. Only I forgot that due to my arthritis I can hardly hold a pen any longer. Ah, well. I'll type the poems on the computer. I have a story I want to write for pleasure this summer, and I decided to try some free AI online image generators to see if I could create cover art for it that way. I have only tried using AI a couple of times and was expecting something less than professional, frankly. Plus ...

In June I'll be looking at ways to incorporate more writing into my life without infringing on the day job. Because writing is my job I have a certain amount of professional work I have to do every day, and that tends to be in the same universe every year. It's not boring but I do feel like I'm in a rut most of the time. I miss writing for pleasure and in genres other than what I write for work, and I want to do more, especially as we roll into summer this month. I always have more time to write during the summer for some reason, probably because it's too hot to do much else. :) My first idea was to try some writing prompts, which is why I invested in 5-Minute Daily Writing Prompts . This book contains 501 prompts and was written by creative writing teacher and author Tarn Wilson , who certainly has the knowledge and experience to help build writing habits. What I liked about the book was the clarity and simplicity of the prompts, which are interesting as w...