Rayen

Last month I went over budget in almost every category, mainly because I was upset and not paying much attention to my spending. It seemed more important to get back my equilibrium and be happy, and I don't regret parting with a little extra cash to do so. I am an emotional creator, and my emotions tend to get out of hand when things go toxic for me. I am easily frightened and I know that intellectually, but what I tell myself in my head seldom migrates to my heart. I have triggers and I imagine I always will. Everyone does. Mine just happen to take a lot of work to quiet down. Anyway, I'm over the trauma, and I've taken steps to protect myself. It's time to get back on track. I already know that I am not suited to having no-spend months, mainly because it's almost impossible to resist temptation when I try. Then there is non-negotiable necessary spending (medicines, reference materials and other things I need for the day job, etc.) which I'll disc...

The other morning I was preparing to drink my second cup of coffee when I realized I was tired of drinking out of a plastic tumbler. I have about a dozen of them, all Starbucks, all red, all thrifted. Yes, it's safer if I happen to drop it (and I drop lots of stuff these days, thank you arthritis) but the color red always makes me nervous. Red equals emergency, blood, and crisis in my head. I didn't think about any of that when I thrifted them; I just wanted something cheap and convenient. Cheap and convenient is nice, easy, and preferable, but not always when it comes to mood. Part of me is tired of settling for what's easy and sacrificing my mood in the process. I want inspiration. I want to be surrounded by beauty and whimsy and things that make me happy. I really, really want to smile in the mornings. So I ditched the plastic tumbler, took out my favorite Halloween ceramic mug and had my second cup of coffee in that. I don't care that it's five mon...

I thrifted a book of origami that included the papers from our local church thrift for $1.99, and decided to try a few of the designs as something different and fun to do. This bunny was my second attempt (the first I had to abandon when I couldn't figure out the directions.) Then I made a swan. Origami is pretty exacting, and sometimes the way the illustrations show to fold the paper is confusing. But I like the results when I do get it right, so I'll keep practicing. I'd love to be able to fold a thousand paper cranes. :)

One morning a few weeks ago I was starting my morning routine when I noticed dried blood on my ankle. I vaguely remembered scratching an itch in that area before I went to bed. Evidently my skin is getting so thin I can tear it with my fingernails. This is one of a few new body problems I have to deal with. Note to self: get the Benadryl lotion when you have an itch. I would like to write more poetry (the inspiring kind, not the depressing kind) so I invested in this poem-a-day prompt book. It has nice pages with a one-line prompt and space to write a poem under it. Only I forgot that due to my arthritis I can hardly hold a pen any longer. Ah, well. I'll type the poems on the computer. I have a story I want to write for pleasure this summer, and I decided to try some free AI online image generators to see if I could create cover art for it that way. I have only tried using AI a couple of times and was expecting something less than professional, frankly. Plus ...

In June I'll be looking at ways to incorporate more writing into my life without infringing on the day job. Because writing is my job I have a certain amount of professional work I have to do every day, and that tends to be in the same universe every year. It's not boring but I do feel like I'm in a rut most of the time. I miss writing for pleasure and in genres other than what I write for work, and I want to do more, especially as we roll into summer this month. I always have more time to write during the summer for some reason, probably because it's too hot to do much else. :) My first idea was to try some writing prompts, which is why I invested in 5-Minute Daily Writing Prompts . This book contains 501 prompts and was written by creative writing teacher and author Tarn Wilson , who certainly has the knowledge and experience to help build writing habits. What I liked about the book was the clarity and simplicity of the prompts, which are interesting as w...

My favorite person gave me a Barnes & Noble gift card for Mother's Day, and I finally made the trek to the one in the Villages to use it. This is nice, too, as I'm planning another attempt at a no-spend month in June. I thrift books or buy used from Alibris to save money, so the chance to buy new was also a real pleasure. Browsing gave me so insight as to the current state of the fiction market (I used to keep up with it more when I worked for NY.) In regard to reading for pleasure, there aren't a lot of titles on the market that tempt me -- all seem to be uniformly depressing or ultraviolent, two things I do not want in my imagination -- but I was intrigued enough by the flap story descriptions of The Astral Library by Kate Quinn to give it a go. I spent the rest of the gift card on my other loves (crochet, art quilting and cooking) because they were what interested me, not that I needed them. I'll pass the quilting mag along to a friend as I usually do...