Rayen

I don't know if it's the general happiness of 2026 (compared to last year, anyway), spring about to arrive or just pure intellectual restlessness, but lately I've been missing writing for pleasure. Everything I do in that department is for income, and there's nothing wrong with that, either. One must pay the bills. It's just that I've always enjoyed writing stories for the sake of just writing stories. I have an archive of close to a thousand of them that I've never published. When I get like this I think about a guy I knew back in the day when I was writing for NY. We met online and I enjoyed talking shop with him so much we were becoming friends. He had a novel planned and it sounded really good, and I intended to help him on his way to publication once he did write it because he was very talented. Then suddenly, just after Hurricane Katrina, he drowned in a boating accident. I have not written anything outside what I do for the day job in a...

Last week my guy and I spent my Friday off going out and about; our first stop was to walk one of our favorite parks. Squirrels were everwyhere, and it was wonderfully cool. It also gave me time to think about some things. I'm so busy at home I hardly ever have the chance to do that anymore. We then walked across the street to check out this thrift store, also one of our favorites. I did not buy anything! Ha. I would like to donate some clothes to a local thift, however, and the church store we usually go to is overflowing with donations at the moment. These folks have more room, and support a regional hospital, so I'll make the trip. We stopped for some coffee, and sat outside to enjoy the weather. It was very busy in the Villages that day, so we got to people watch. Our last visit was to the Russell Stover outlet store (and yes, I did fall off the wagon and bought a little sugarfree candy. I'm only human!)

Last week I suddenly got very tired and dispirited. The weather turned rainy and cold. I've been working a lot, and my days are much busier now that I have another 200 lbs. man to care for and feed. I've had to overhaul the first part of my first big work project because my first go was tired and dispirited (I wonder why?) My guy wanted to go out on Friday with me, which meant swapping my work days and working on Sunday. Since I've started taking weekends off I really like that two-day break from the day job. I decided to double up on Thursday and do all my work to free me up for Friday. It took most of the day, and all of the last dregs of my creativity, but then suddenly I realized I'd earned myself a three-day weekend. Then my guy called me out to look at the sky. Rainbows have different meanings to different people, whether they're religious or political or what have you. I just like them because they're rare and lovely. This one appearing ove...

I like exercise and adjusting my diet to control my diabetes. It's brought my A1C down over four points, and it's improved my mood and helped me sleep better. That said, I still have very bad food cravings at night. I don't know why, it's just the worst time of day for me, especially with junk foods. This is the reason why I prefer to stay busy after dinner. I also drink sparkling mineral water with no carbs or calories or stress relief lavender tea with a little stevia to keep me from snacking. I've never found anything that eliminates those cravings, however, until I watched this video. I already eat oatmeal three or four times a week to help with my high cholesterol, and it does fill me up. The high fiber drink Mei recommends with rolled oats and flaxseed (about 5:11 into the video) is one I thought wouldn't work for me at night. I tried it anyway, and to my shock after drinking it my cravings went away entirely, and didn't come back. If...

I'm keeping my threat to watch more documentaries, and started with Egypt's Lost Pyramid on Tubi. I love archaeology, and while I'm more interested in Celtic finds I do think ancient Egyptians were pretty interesting, especially in regard to their outstanding feats of tomb building and engineering. This documentary is less than an hour long, and has a pretty decent locked room-style mystery involved with the discovery of a supposedly untouched 4,000 year-old tomb in a pyramid that someone got into without leaving any trace of how they broke in and looted it. I figured out the mystery fairly quickly, but I still enjoyed seeing the site team work together to solve it. Free to watch on Tubi .

I'm not sure why I decided to watch the Tawainese criminal thriller movie The Abandoned on Netflix. I've been so into avoiding darkness of any variety that these sort of movies no longer have any appeal for me. Life is scary enough, you know? But I think I was looking for something different because boredom got the better of me. Moving forward, I think I'll go watch a documentary instead. The film opens with a woman about to commit suicide in her car. Some frightened kids interrupt her, and she goes to see a corpse that has washed up on shore. Police later arrive, and we learn the woman is a troubled police officer. Gradually as she investigates the death of the woman she found we learn that she's deeply depressed over the suicide by gun of her husband, to the point of where she sleeps in the car where he killed himself (also explaining the beginning) and frequently touches the bloodied bullet hole in the ceiling liner. Finally she becomes drawn into the murd...