The green patchwork quilt I won from my last round of wannabuts bids just arrived. Let's take a look. It's a lovely quilt, pieced and quilted on a domestic machine. I love the gold quilting thread the maker used. The backing is a dark tonal green that matches the binding. It's a pretty quilt, and once I wash it I'll keep it to snuggle up with on the sofa in my home office.
It's odd that I have written and rewritten this post so many times when the clarity of it is crystal for me. I think I'm still worried about hurting the feelings of others by being open rather than guarded as I usually am. But I'm also gradually getting over that. Some years back I began ending all contact with people who for many different reasons were toxic to me. This included colleagues, friends, and nearly all of my adoptive family members. I did this as politely as I could, but I know I hurt some feelings. I have always tried to be accessible and helpful to the people in my life no matter what was going on with me. They counted on me to listen to them and offer them comfort, advice, money, or whatever else they needed (usually money.) Unfortunately they did not reciprocate, so my relationships were always me giving and them taking. I'm not wired like other people, and I don't fit in very well, especially with groups. When I've tried to ...